Just the Way You Are

I decided to add a new page to my blog today, a pictures page.  I figured I can write about my journey, I can write about how my body is changing, I can write about how my looks are changing, but they are only words.  I think by posting pictures I am not only making myself stay accountable for keeping up this weight loss journey, but it shows my progress.  It is a visual representation of my long and perilous journey to being healthy and fit.  I sincerely hope that by doing this, it's a good thing.

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I realise that I have not updated once since I made my weight loss pledge, but I have been avoiding the internet as much as possible this past week because it distracts me and causes me to fall behind on my schoolwork.  Then again I could always say that I have to post a blog whenever I log on for non-homework purposes.  This way I make sure I update my blog when I'm not focusing on homework but it might also deter me from going on things like facebook.....

So far, this week has been a kind of difficult because I haven't had money to buy food and then I don't plan my time to make sure I make food, so I have been not eating as well as I should be; giving up break has made this that much more difficult.  I asked a friend of mine - who lost 50 lbs over the last year and a half - if tortillas count as bread - she said no; I just looked online and found out that it is.  I guess I am going to need to revise my bread giving up to not include tortillas because I'm going to need SOMETHING to hold my food in - there is only so much a person can take of fruit and cheese.

This week as also been quite difficult in that it started with a heat wave!  On Sunday it was near 100, Monday it was 109 (113 in LA, a record high since 1990), and today it was in the 90s, and tomorrow it's suppose to be in the high 80s (though I'm sure it will hit 90, at least).  For some reason my feet tend to swell up when it gets to hot - weather it's because I'm SO overweight or if it's something else, I don't know, but they do.  So much so that I have HAD to wear sandals all day.  I really hope that now that the heat is going down my feet wills top swelling.  I like where I live - usually a decent climate - but I am SO over the heat.  I'm sure if I had spend the last year in Northern England/Scotland like two of my friends, I'm sure I would be loving the heat; but after the second day of this heat wave even THEY were over it.  I think that shows how bad it's been.  On the other hand, I don't really have good lower than 70 degree weather shoes, so I am just going to be thankful that the heat wave is leaving and hope that it doesn't get too cold too fast.

Tomorrow is a gym day, so I'm hoping I will do as good as i did last week (I ended up running half a lap - the short legs) on my and Elle's 30ish minute walk around the track.  Hopefully tomorrow we'll be able to play some hand ball and then do some walking.  I hope by next month I'll be able to run two or so laps.  I realise that the end of September is tomorrow, so I guess my goal of running an entire lap by the end of the month probably won't happen - well, without me doubling over desperately trying to breath after - but I think if I can run four of the shorter legs of the track, that will at least be a step in the right direction.  Right?

Hopefully I'll remember to check back in on Friday morning and update on the work out.  I'm even contemplating adding another page for weight tracking and comments on the week - food, school, stress, &c - something that will help me see what I'm doing right and what I'm doing wrong and go from there.

Until then, ~a