I want so bad to believe whole heartedly in God. I did once, but now it just feels so fake. I'm not saying that God is fake, I'm just saying that if I were to say 'I'll pray for you' I'm being fake because most likely I'll forget to pray for you - and usually when did I pray it's to ask for strength and guidance when times are difficult or in gratitude of getting through the day &c.
Until I figure out where I'm going to go, I will continue to tell people they will be in my thoughts and in my heart. I will continue to believe in God's grace (which I truly believe is the greatest thing in the world) and I will continue to be amazed when fantastical things happen to those I love and care about. I will continue to respect all religions as long as they make the person believing in them truly happy. I will continue to be me, just still questioning, wondering, pontificating. I hope one day I can believe as devoutly as some of the people I know, to put my complete trust in a single entity and know that if it's meant to be it will be. I hope one day to be like Job.
Its strange that even though we may not believe in God, but still a part of us wants to believe in God, maybe not for us, for the ones we care. Like we can't be around all the time to take care of our loved ones. So we hope and pray that someone somewhere is taking care of them... for us.
ReplyDeleteExactly, religion (for those of us who have misplaced the faith)is for other people.
ReplyDeleteI think we made God for our own convenience.
ReplyDeletea way to understand why things are the way they are..
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