Today my coworker Mike was working at his old job (covering for a friend) and he sent a smoothie back for me with Lizzy (my other coworker) and it honestly make my day. Then it hit me: I can't even get Gabe to text me most days much less actually see him - but this guy I work with actually asked Lizzy if I was working and then sent me a smoothie. It should be said that the end of the semester is quickly approaching so both Gabe and I are insanely busy trying to finish up school work; but he also said he was willing to make an effort to see me. I wish I could remind him that he doesn't have to work even a quarter that hard: if you text me during the day I will be completely happy. I'm easy - I can't help it, it's just my nature. (and no, there is no feelings of that nature for Mike, it was just an observation).
I wish I was braver. I wish I didn't feel like pain in my chest when you sign off mid-chat (I try to convince myself that it is merely a bad connection). I wish I didn't wish so many things.
*sigh*
Time to put the mask back on and get back to reading about 17th Century German witchcraft...and trying to stay focused.
This is what hurts us the most... When we don't from the one from whom we expect.. instead we get from the one's whom we never expected.
ReplyDeleteBut why do we make such expectations which we know are going to hurt us later on.. or we simply ignore the fact that our expectations cannot be fulfilled always.. some day or the other.. some instance or the other, things may not be as calm as the sea... turbulence will be there.
It's the same case other way round too.. You cannot always fulfill the expectations people have set from you... one day or the other you will fail to deliver, and then the litmus test of the relationship begins, in which not many pass.