i guess that's why they call it the blues

why do i feel like i'm waiting for my real life to begin?  like this part doesn't count....like this is just practice?  maybe it's the over active imagination and massive movie/television watching and the far too much reading that i do, i just feel like i could be happier somewhere else.  maybe it's also the severe lack of friends and the non existent social (due to lack of friends and funds).  one day i'll be the person i was always meant to be