9 Crimes

Sometimes I wish I could just *not* think about events, people, other things. I wish, oh how I wish, I could be something like a normal person....if only for one day. To be happy and actually stay that way. To tell the people whom I care about that I do in fact care about them. To understand why I feel pulled to certain people and what I'm suppose to *do* with them. I hate that I cannot express myself and just be me. I hate that I'm trapped - caged. I hate that no matter how much I want to change I never really can. I hate the shell of a person that I'm becoming. I hate it all.