I am not a girl that can ever be defined

I have started a new endeavor, I have decided to try to sell some of the things I make; people keep telling me how good they are, now lets see if they are good enough for people to want to buy them.  My blog for this adventure is: http://alohaforlife.blogspot.com/.

A part of me is a little unsure of posting my new blog site here because I want to make sure the two accounts are very much kept separate.  This is a place where I can say what I feel, where I can express myself and not really worry about offending someone, where I can be me.  That said, I think some of my things are quite cool and I think I will have to start going outside my comfort zone if I really want to do this things successfully.

Hopefully this goes well....
Lately I have had trouble sleeping.

Morgan's cousin is in the hospital for heart trouble and today she told me that she's now that 'ah-ha' moment where you realize that most things that people stress about in life do not really matter.  You either pass the test or you don't, it's nothing to kill yourself over.  At the end of the day, all that matters is that you lead a good life, are nice to other people, and you felt love at least once in your life; if you fail a class, miss a test, forget to turn in a homework assignment, or ditch a class, in the grand scheme of things, it's merely a minor speed beep in the highway of life.  There are more important things in life.

I told you about Morgan's story because it's a similar to why I haven't been sleeping well, I think.  I am having so much trouble trying to find motivation to stay on track and put my all into this final semester, but when your dad has stage IV prostate cancer and you really do not know how much longer he has to live, it's hard to care too much about something as trivial as school - especially when I still do not know what I am going to do after I graduate.  I have told my dad, and most people, that I will be trying to get into the Multiple Subject Credential Program so I can teach Elementary School, but I am really in no rush.

I was thinking about it the other day, and I really do not like getting up early - which is a bad thing when you are a school teacher.  Maybe I will get an office job to pay the bills and then spend my free time doing what I want.  I do not know.  I never thought past college, I'm not entirely sure why.  I guess I have been in school so long that I figured that whatever I was suppose to do after college would present itself as I neared the end of school.  But, unfortunately, this is not the case.  But who know, something still might present itself - school is not over for another few months.

I guess now it's time for bed.  The only way I found to actually fall asleep is to wait until I cannot keep my eyes open any longer and then go to bed; unfortunately, it has lead to me not quite getting up on time.  Hopefully I can get this settled out.

Oh man, I was going to talk about Jo's friend, but I guess it will have to wait until next time.

Oyasuminasai and pleasant dreams.


"I am not fly, I am levitation"


It would appear that thanks to this new Blogger layout I cannot link the title of my blog to a video, so I will put it here instead: